“Impossible
is the word only found in the dictionary of a fool”
The
word of Napoleon is all time favorite for him.
We are keep on making records – the success over the impossible.
When
he moved mouse to the result section of University, curiosity
transformed as a vibration and conceded through his hands! Backside of the
opened eye lids, retina cells enlarged like watching an unbelievable stuff.
***** ***** *****
It
was a rainy day. Unexpected downpour! Due to the lack of any preparation for
rain, the echo of curses surrounded in the air!
The
setback of a big fail in his life engraving the path for bitter water from eyes
to mouth. It is not sour, but hard and bitter and passing from lips to mouth. In
the darkness, some black monsters are laming to embrace him forcefully!
“
I never thought he is a fool…”
“These
guys are going to school not for study, just wasting time and money, that’s
all.. Stupid”
There
is lot of words to decorate him. The Monster words are dancing in front along
with the whiz of rain.
There
was no hope in mind when he went to school to check the result of plus two
final exam. His plus two schoolwork was flow less like the
water in the nearest river. He never studied seriously- it was a futile attempt.
His great ambition was to go to Arts
School to learn painting – a great passion. It is not only a passion but also a dream…..
be a good painter. The world of brush, colours and touching of nature …. all these are
pampering the mind from childhood.
But
when he seen the tiny black figures in notice board, suddenly something
paralyzed his mind. Like getting a bang from back with a heavy hammer. In receipt of
that attack; he seen his
classmates are jumping and dancing over their victory.
Mentally
punctured legs are not suitable to walk. It is really an unexpected setback for
him. How things changing swiftly and drastically?! A different feeling which
never peeped to his studies!! But he reached home.
The
verbal and mental attack got from kith and kin now paved the way for bitter
water to his mouth. The black Monsters are
dancing in front of his eyes. It usurping
to mind as well. Where is the solution? How to tackle and resolve this
bitterness? In front of others, he is a “fool”, a “useless”
and then “stupid”. A shameless boy !
Before
all these monsters, in the early stage of morning he took a decision. A vow
of Bhishma crafted in mind from the sorrow of bitter water. Yes, he want to
revenge this world. He wants to revenge the Monsters. A hard revenge until the
end of that twittering. There is no rest from next dawn…. A door of hard work opening.
And lot of hurdles to overcome. Life need to be changed as a sonorous avenge. He
tightly closed eyes-not for sleep but for the beginning of a brand new dawn.
***** ***** ***** ******
Files,
files and again files. Work without any
rest to eyes, mind and hands. Restless assignments. Somebody calls this ‘busy’
but he like to call ‘mad’. Reports, letters, emails, presentations, telephone
and mobiles calls, grievances from every nook and corners and eventually speedy
fingers fighting with the keyboard of computer.
It
is now twenty years passed after that hard decision. Experiments…. hurdles …. troubles….
And the long journey of an expatriate from the top of mountain to the softness
of sea bed. Long and hard twenty years.
The
fire of revenge is still in his mind. Like a cinder covered with ashes. A soft breeze is enough to remove the covering.
All
books of first semester are lying in front of him. Management Concept, Organization
Behavior, Quantitative Methods, Financial Accounting, Managerial Economics. How
to start? There is not much hindrances faced previously and completed all without much
hassle. But now, in between this ‘busy’
and ‘mad’ world??
Yes,
it is an oath, revenge. Still remember the black Monsters are dancing in front in different phases of
night. “ Hey, I want to defeat you all. This is another opportunity for an absolute
carnage…”
One
by one, the semesters fall down. Twenty one papers, trip to home country, the devotion and penance for examinations. Loneliness in the dark hotel room at city….. taste
of chlorine water, reading without
sleep, unconditional process of writing from morning to evening …. thirty to
forty pages for each papers. But mind is not fall down…. not failed. The
burning inside passed through the hands like electrons. Continuously, again and
again without any break.
Evening,
with a tired body, inside the nearest church he crossed fingers - short and quite
for mind.
All
semesters completed. But three papers yet to pass. The hurdles are more.
Getting leave, handing over, family……
the hue and cry of mental fertility. Three papers between cup and lip!
It
is not a big impediment. Every year thousands are passing. But for him, it is
not mere a course -it is an oath. A burning decision towards himself, for the
lazy school days.
Three
papers…. Again traveling to home
country, hotel room, hermit life at city.
Christmas
day evening. In the middle of celebrations,
weeping face of his daughter making vibrations throughout the journey. Four eyes,
one ‘bye’ wrapped with set of feelings.
A
topsy-turvy journey ended with the futile planning. He already booked a hotel room
near to the exam centre. But as the last bus also left, he has to forced to
stay in a lodge near to bus station.
A
black night. The foul smell, irritating sound of old fan, the songs of
mosquitoes…. Acrobatics of cockroaches embracing to legs. Stain filled bathroom. Hence the sleep is long
far from mind and body, he spent entire night by reading the chapters of text.
Called
wife and passed the message “ I reached
here….. nice stay. Good night”
Three
examinations…. three days…..
Again
few days with family, the play with daughter and eventually thee tearful
eyes saying ‘good bye’. The humming and
swimming of flight in between the clouds- day and night.
***** ***** ***** ******
He
typed the register number and selected the name of course in the green website
of University, then clicked the ‘Result’
Obliviously,
his eyes waiting few seconds. The result
of three years dedication. One moment is fully loaded with feelings and unlimited expectations.
The
result! The result of three years ascetic life. Appearing in black colour but poured all colours to his
mind!
Like
a lotus in blue pond, Facebook comments and likes are increased
more than hundreds within couple of days; which makes an immense sigh in his
mind and the ticking to heart so far.
He
got a diminutive smile…. But it is not coming out, because the black Monsters
are still around!! But now …. at this moment, he defeated them once again! One
more avenge!
Then
the rave “ Let us see in next arena…..
soon… very soon”
